Ang AYDOL kong KOPOL ♥

To infinity and beyond! ♥

Siguro naman lahat ng couple eh may mga iniidolo. Like me, I do have lots of couple idols – Eunice and Arvin, Kenneth and Deshly, Maricar and Richard, Nikki and Billy and of course, Iya and Drew. Only two of them are not in showbiz right? Sila Eunice & Arvin and Kenneth & Deshly. Pero of course, ang gusto kong i-share ay si Eunice and Arvin na nasa picture sa itaas. Lezzstart?

Halili-Lumibao Nuptials 

Joke lang. Hahaha. Arvin Jasper Halili and Eunice Lumibao. ‘Yan ang real name nila. Kaya ko sila nakilala ay dahil syempre, best friend ko si Eunice at repaks ko naman si Arvin. Barkada ganun. They’re part of my circle of friends. First year palang, sila na. Kaso, ewan ko ba. They’re a bit immature for a serious relationship. Kaya hindi nag-work. Naka-meet ng new lovers pero nung 3rd year kami.. Ayun na.. Nagkabalikan na.

Nung nagkabalikan sila, syempre, hindi naman naging madali. Lahat naman yata ng relationship, hindi nagiging madali. Lahat may trials, lahat may challenges, lahat may obstacles na pinagdadaanan. Syempre, hindi din naman sila identical. May mga bagay na magkaibang magkaiba sila. Like for example, si Eunice, she’s a bit moody. Si Arvin naman, pa-sumpong sumpong. Hahaha. Mas malambing si Arvin. Ganun. Basta. Madaming bagay na hindi naman sila pareho pero winork-out nila para maging comfortable at masanay sila sa isa’t isa.

Magtu-two years na sila sa November. Nalagpasan na nila ang 1st stage which is the first year – ang stage kung saan puro lambingan, pa-sweet’an etc. Malalagpasan na din nila ang second stage which is the second year – yung stage kung saan makikita na ang weaknesses and mga pangit na sides ng partner. Papasok na sila sa 3rd stage which is the third year – yung stage na magde-decide na sila kung GO pa o AWAT na. And of course, alam ko at sure ako na GO pa sila.

Kahapon, I went out for lunch with them. Tapos nililikot ni John Ray yung phone ko. Nakita niya yung picture ni Ate Angel (Ka-teatro ko.) Tapos sabi niya kay Arvin, “Pare, chiks oh.” Tingin naman ‘tong si Arvin tapos tingin pa uli. Si Eunice, ang sama na ng tingin. Tapos bumanat ‘tong si Arvin.

“asdfghjkllkjhgfdeg.. Isa lang naman ANGEL ng buhay ko.” Sabay tingin kay Eunice. (Nalimutan ko na kasi yung unang sentence niya eh.)

Ayuuuun. Si Eunice naman, kinilig. Halata! Hahaha. Nakakatuwa sila. Kasi kahit na magtu-two years na sila, akala mo, bagong mag-boyfriend pa lang dahil sa ka-sweet’an.

Nakakatuwa. Sobrang idol ko ‘yang dalawang ‘yan pagdating sa love & relationship. Ang perfect kasi. Though wala namang perfect relationship, pero para sakin, perfect sila. MFEO. Made for each other. Ang ganda kasi ng foundation. Ang ganda nung para lang sila magkapatid minsan, minsan mag-bestfriend etc. Alam niyo ‘yun? Nakakatuwa kasi kahit anong mangyari sakanila, alam ko na matibay sila.

They can overcome whatever trial they’ll face. Buti nalang witness ako sa love story nila.

EUNICE AND ARVIN. Sila nga pala ANG AYDOL KONG KOPOL ♥

A messy day.

smile can’t hide all the pain inside.

As the caption says, a smile can’t hide the pain inside. Look at my eyes. People say that the eyes are the windows of the soul. Now, tell me. What can you see? Do you see happiness? Do you see pain? Do you see sufferings and heartaches? No one can tell me the real answer ’cause only me can tell my feelings. Maybe you can feel it because of my actions.

I tried my very best to smile on the picture but my eyes are so rebel that it decided to be teary. Why am I teary? Well. I have lots of reasons. First, I didn’t stand for what I started. Yes. I’m talking about my course. Sh’t. I entered Accountancy and now, I’m giving it up. But, hopefully, I’ll do better in Engineering. Hopefully. Next, the judgment I received. Kuya Ralph, well.. He’s a former friend. I used to be her friend when we were on Elementary. I had a misunderstanding with him last time. We were throwing some silly jokes and I didn’t expect that he’ll accept it personally. And, my classmate told me that Kuya Ralph is so angry to one of our classmates. We don’t know whom Kuya Ralph was talking about. Myel also told us that she saw how Kuya Ralph acts when he was talking about the girl.

“Feeling maganda. Arte arte naman. Landi landi.“

I don’t know whom he was pertaining to and now, lately this afternoon, I knew that it was me. I was like, “Why me?” What have I done to him to tell me those things? He knows my name. Not my story. Not what I’ve been through. He shouldn’t judge me. Maarte? Me? Maybe. In the way I dress, the way I look but malandi? Dafvck? He knows nothing! I’m not a b’tch. I’m crying while typing. I can’t do anything but to cry. I’m so fragile. I’m weak.

And lately this evening.. I was texting with Tina. She was DJ’s friend and an ex-girlfriend. Well, we were talking about some girl and then she told me to join them (Raphael and her) on a date. I told her, “Haha! Osige. Walang problema sakin. Ke Ivan, meron. 🙂” then she asked me why. I answered, “Eh dalaga ‘yun. Madalang payagan.” She answered, “Pagpaalam ko.” Then I agreed. I replied, “Sige. Bahala kayo.” “Hahaha. Mabait naman mader nun sunduin ko sa bahay. For you.” She added. Then, I bitterly answered, “Sa’yo mabait.” Then that was the start of my coldness. I lost my good mood. It’s like someone’s reminding me, “Hey, his mom and dad doesn’t like you. Envy her. His mom is kind on her.” Sheez. This is unfair to Tina. I’m not admitting this kind of thing to her. Tina asked, “Sa’yo ba? Tss. Sino ba me ayaw sayo? Papa or mama niya?” Then, again, I bitterly answered, “Both.”

Then, I sent them a group message. Okay. I indicated there my feelings. Well. I really don’t know what my feelings are. I’m jealous. I’m angry. I’m depressed. I feel so unloved. I hate this feeling. I don’t know what to do. This has been a messy day.

INGGITERA NA, INSEKYORA PA.

UGLY ME. Hahaha. Lol.

Well, sa insekyora muna tayo. Well, nag-exam ako for The Defenders (Official School Publication) but unfortunately, I didn’t pass it and my best friend and my friend passed it. Kay Eunice, wala akong na-feel. I’m proud of her and masaya ako para sa kanya. Kay Cess, MERON. As in na-insecure ako sa kanya. SHE’S SO BLESSED! It’s not that I’m criticizing or underestimating her potentials and skills but it’s like “SIYA NA NAMAN? SIYA NA LANG LAGI?” She ranked first in Teatro audition tapos nakapasa pa siya sa TD? Oh well, maybe there’s a reason behind her success. After kong malaman na sinanla pala ng Mama niya yung phone niya dahil wala na siyang pambaon at wala sila pang dinner, naawa ako sa kanya at nawala yung insecurity ko. LIFE IS SOOOOOO FAIR. Parang alam ni Lord na kapag nakapasa si Cess sa dalawang ‘yun, mababawasan yung worries niya. Mas magiging okay siya. Mas sasaya siya kaya okay na ako. I’m happy for the both of them. Nanliit lang ako sa sarili ko. THE EDITOR-IN-CHIEF FAILED. What a heart-breaking failure.

Inggitera? o.O

Kay Eunice and Arvin. Nakikita ko kasi yung sweetness nila. As in kanina, kumain kami sa KFC, para silang mag-boyfriend na magce-celebrate ng first date. Kahit na magtu-two years na sila e parang nung tinatanong ni Arvin si Eunice kung ano yung kakainin niya, parang nahihiya pa si Eunice. Grabe. :”””””> Kinikilig ako. Hindi ako naiirita.

Tapos nung naglalakad kami, inaalalayan pa ni Arvin si Eunice. Parang naisip ko na sana may naggaganon din sakin. Hihi. :”>

Hinatid pa namin si Eunice. Nakakatuwa talaga si Arvin. :”>

So, ayun lang. Hihihi.

One Rainy Tuesday Afternoon.

I am waiting for my prof to come because we have a workshop and an orientation in Teatro Peninsulares so I have to ask for her permission so I can leave her class. When she came, I hurriedly went to her and told her about it. She said yes but whatever I missed, it’s not her problem. I nod and got my things but she said we’ll be having a quiz so I took the quiz before leaving.

We’re done with the quiz and I’m just still waiting for the result. Thank God, I passed! I quickly went to BYC and I looked for my best friend but she’s not yet there. I saw Ate Sheila, a theater actor, she told me that they had posted a wrong date. It should be today (Wednesday.) I am ashamed if I am going back to my classroom so I’ve decided to stay with my best friend and we had a looooooong chitchat and my next class will be starting at 6:00pm. It was 6:00pm and I am so lazy to attend the next class because it is a boring subject – Physical Science. So I end up talking and talking, laughing and laughing with my best friend until 6:30pm came.

We have to leave because my class will end at 7:30pm. I’m afraid I’ll get caught. Hahaha! We started walking going to Eunice’s house and we stopped and took a picture. Haha. Eunice is being paranoid. She said that maybe someone will snatch her phone. Haha! We took a picture.

We reached BPI and I have to ride on a trike to go to terminal. And suddenly, “Miss sakay?” I was shocked and was afraid of the man because he looks like a rapist. Hahaha. (Now, I’m the one who’s paranoid!) I rode on a different trike and the man who frightened me was angry because he asked me and I didn’t respond. I’m so nervous. I went home happy. That’s all. 🙂